When You Don’t Bring Your Baby Home

She left her hand on his head as the nurse started to pull her away. It felt like in that moment she was able to break through the level of anesthesia and medications pumped into her… long enough to understand the full magnitude and gravity of the last hours of her life. A day before she was laboring with smiles and laughter and happiness and excitement and positivity. Her son was safe in her womb, at least much safer than in this moment. I cannot image what the full weight of the world could feel like. But I know in this minute of time, of all of the people in the entire universe, Natalie felt every ounce of it.